September 2018 archive

The week of hell…

So I have failed myself the past few weeks…. two to be exact.

First: I lost quite a few posts on this website however fortunate that some of them had been saved… ((Remember to back up your work kids!!))

Second: I haven’t posted at all this week. – My Excuse – A Concussion… but really I could have written so the fault lay solely on my shoulders.

Not being online gave me quite a bit of time to look inward some more and find out what it is that makes me spin out of control and down the proverbial rabbit hole. I do rather feel like Alice.. as she fall watching things in her life pass her by unable to control it until that moment.. her dress flies open and she controls her downward spiral till her feet are back on the ground. I think I had my epiphany yesterday after talking with a friend.

For most of my life I have had issues with my health… one of them affects my body to its core. Hypothyroidism…. it throws off my hormones, my chemical balance, a lot of stuff really. I have NOT been taking my medication for it while looking for a full time job in fear of having to take a drug test. The pills I have are legitimately mine. When I knew I would be loosing my insurance I got as many of them as I could. However the prescription is no longer current. I am working on getting that rectified.

Hashimoto’s thyroiditis is an autoimmune disease, a disorder in which the immune system turns against the body’s own tissues. In people with Hashimoto’s, the immune system attacks the thyroid. This can lead to hypothyroidism, a condition in which the thyroid does not make enough hormones for the body’s needs.

Funny how the ONE THING I should remember I often forget. Back into the daily rotation the pills go… I need to care for me and that includes caring for ALL of me.

Due to the long half-life of levothyroxine, the peak therapeutic effect at a given dose of levothyroxine sodium may not be attained for 4-6 weeks.

Marks the calendar and starts moving forward again.

Looking Inward

So today I was labeled.. “Classic Type A” personality….. while there are points of this I cannot argue there are definitely points I object to completely.  So I did some reading and then wanted to re-test for the 16 standard personality types and see what changes I had undergone since the last time I took it a few years ago…

Competitiveness ((Agree to a point but I have low blood pressure.))

Type A individuals tend to be very competitive and self-critical. They strive toward goals without feeling a sense of joy in their efforts or accomplishments. (GUILTY – trying to work on enjoying it more.)

Interrelated with this is the presence of a significant life imbalance.  This is characterized by a high work involvement.  Type A individuals are easily ‘wound up’ and tend to overreact. They also tend to have high blood pressure (hypertension).

Time Urgency ((Completely OCD when it comes to organizing my day and my space, and structure my projects to AVOID the clock.))

Type A personalities experience a constant sense of urgency: Type A people seem to be in a constant struggle against the clock.

Often, they quickly become impatient with delays and unproductive time, schedule commitments too tightly, and try to do more than one thing at a time, such as reading while eating or watching television.

Hostility ((NOPE…. I hold things inward, I do not bully, I do not envy, and I am compassionate and empathic))

Type A individuals tend to be easily aroused to anger or hostility, which they may or may not express overtly. Such individuals tend to see the worse in others, displaying anger, envy and a lack of compassion.

When this behavior is expressed overtly (i.e., physical behavior) it generally involves aggression and possible bullying (Forshaw, 2012). Hostility appears to be the main factor linked to heart disease and is a better predictor than the TAPB as a whole.

Now… for the 16 personality types… you take a quiz answering various questions some various of the same question…..   (((INFJ-T)))

While the whole article is long there are a few points that hit home…

INFJs also tend to be “highly sensitive persons” (HSPs). Their nervous systems are wired to be more sensitive and permeable to all sorts of stimuli—both inner and outer. This sensitivity can be a double-edged sword for the INFJ. ((YUP!))

INFJs are “old souls.” Many grow up feeling wiser than would be predicted by their chronological age. Having discovered the value of their Introverted Intuition (Ni) quite early in life, INFJs grow to trust its judgments and insights. Even as children and adolescents, INFJs can be found advising and counseling their friends and siblings, and perhaps even adult family members. They tend to feel happiest and most fulfilled when helping and enlightening others through their insights. ((I built my own family and I would do anything in the world for them and thrive when they thrive))

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